“Girl, get on your knees.”
“But God, it is uncomfortable and not normal and I feel weird.”
“I do not care if it is uncomfortable. You will not be able to lead well, serve well, take care of yourself well, function well, if you do not get on your knees.”
I walked into this school year knowing that I had been placed in a leadership position where I would have to serve and care for dozens of girls. I knew that it would be hard and that I would have to rely on the Lord more than ever before.
And yet the reality of it all hit me like a truck.
As a person prone to striving too hard for perfection and struggling with asking for help, not being able to be do my job all on my own was uncomfortable.
At a worship night a few days into the school year starting, I heard God so clearly tell me to get on my knees, something I had never done before of my own volition unless it was being led corporately. In the middle of that worship service, I got down on my knees and prayed.
It was uncomfortable.
I thought that everyone must be looking at me. And yet, I was in a complete state of humility before the Lord and I felt a peace wash over me and a strength fill me that I had not felt in a long time.
In that moment, I knew that it was going to be a season of getting on my knees before the Lord praying for wisdom as I serve, for healing for the brokenness in the girls on my hall, for strength and unity in my leadership, for rest. I could go on.
Living comfortably uncomfortable means going before the Lord in full humility for everything that you need.
Micah 6:8 (ESV) says “He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”
Living in humility is a requirement for the Believer and it does not matter if it makes you uncomfortable. For me, getting on my knees has become my physical act of humility before the Lord. And yes, it still makes me uncomfortable, but it is becoming more natural and I have seen growth in my prayer life as a result.
In Ephesians 3:14-21, Paul details why he gets on his knees before our Father:
“For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”
Paul recognizes the posture of humility that comes with getting on your knees and the opportunity it provides for more intimate communication with the Father.
The Hebrew word “Barak” means “To kneel. To bless God (as an act of adoration). To praise. To salute. To thank.” I first heard this word when Australian Pastor Darren Whitehead spoke at Liberty. He spoke about the 7 Hebrew words of worship (something I will write more on in the future) and how today’s church has so much to learn about it.
The word Barak has to do with humility in our worship. In his book written with Chris Tomlin, Whitehead writes, “It is used 289 times in the Psalms, and on each occurence it’s used to describe worshipers falling on their faces before God in reverence, adoration and thanks….it carried the connotation of bending low while keeping one’s eyes fixed on the king. To barak is to be transfixed.”
Getting on our knees before the Lord is an act of humility and surrender. It puts us in the lowest of postures while fixing our focus on our King.
So today, I will leave you with the simple words of one of my favorite Chris Tomlin songs, “We Fall Down.” As you read these words, I challenge you to ask God to show you how to come to him in full surrender and humility, even if it is uncomfortable.
“We fall down, we lay our crowns, at the feet of Jesus. The greatness of, Mercy and love, at the feet of Jesus. And we cry Holy, Holy, Holy.”